I have spent the last two days bullshitting. I have not studied for any of my two remaining finals at all, and at this point, I don’t give a fuck.
I just jumped up out of my sleep at like 1 in the morning just feeling New-York-street-alley-dirty. I nearly ran to the shower, only to be greeted by a filthy fucking shower. It really bothers how fucking dirty these white girls are. There is so much fucking hair in the motherfucking drain that the fucking water doesn’t even fucking run out anymore. I’m so done with all this shit. There’s fucking pussy hair and armpit hair all over the fucking walls. I feel cleaner walking into the shower on my heaviest of period days than I do walking out that shithole they make me wash my pussy in.
I come back to my room and clean the shit out of my room. Just be-fucking-cause. My side of the room has been messy for the past couple of days because I been too lazy to put away all my shoes and put my pants back on the hangers. Then I decide to sweep the room. Then I decide to disinfect fucking everything. Why? I really don’t fucking know.
Everything is just getting on my fucking nerves. The little Chinese bitch down the hall that’s always in the bathroom every fucking time she hears someone in there no matter what time of the night it is. The stupid fat bitch next door that walks around the hallway with three rats, each the size of my fucking arm, crawling around her fucking neck. Even my roommates are starting to get on my nerves, and I really have nothing against them. I’M.JUST.READY.TO.GO!!!!!!!!!!!
I’ve never been so ready to go home in my fucking life. I want my house. I want my room. I want my bed. I want my mom. College is completely fun, don’t get me wrong. But this dorm life is so incredibly shitty, all it makes me want to do is sleep. I took three fucking naps today hoping it would help the time go by faster but it only made it feel like fucking molasses dammit.
I haven’t even studied. I have an exam Tuesday and another one Wednesday and I have yet to look over any of the material outside of the reviews that I attended. *deep fucking sigh* I just needed to vent on here so that now I can calm down and take these last few days to actually study.