Hmmm…first and foremost is Eciraum -________-. Someonee called me the other day and told mee he has a gf . Wtf ?? So I went into the bathroom and cried for about an hour and a half . Then I camee out and took a walk becausee I was pissed . So I went to thee park . I called my best friend because she is of course my sanity . Then I called him and asked him about it and he said he doesn’t . So then I called back the person that called me and asked them if they were sure . They said yes . I called him back and told him . Blahh blahh blahh he denied . So I hung up , I was likee fuck it . Somebody told mee it was somee fat black bitch Brittany that go to the church so you KNOW I had to go to see who this bitch was ! Ugh she ugly af ! I’m never the conceited typee , but I know for a fact I look 657435484354 times better than her . That would be major downgrade on Maurice’s part . She’s the ghetto bitch with half of her head shaved off , and it just soo happened that shaved in her head was the word “Flash,” which if anyone knows Maurice , knows that his nicknamee is Flash . So that pissed me off . Now don’t go thinking that I’m just somee crazy jealous ex-girlfriend that don’t want to see him with nobody else . As far as i’m concerned , he and I were supposed to working out a relationship . Then after church I was told somee more information about him , and that was just likee putting a knife through my heart . I cried . I cried and I cried and I cried till I couldn’t cry anymore . I was always the onee to say never cry over a nigga , but until you’re in that situation , you can’t sayy shit . Sometimes the hurt is strong and deeply rooted , so there’s no way to stop the tears :’( Then hurt and sadness quickly changed into anger . I was PISSED ! Cussing and all that shit , straight out of church on a Sundayy . Then when I got homee I sent him a text message saying exactly how I felt and it used somee words that I’m not very proud of :/ Oh well . After that , I was donee . I deleted him off of FB , I deleted his number our of his phone , I ripped up all of the cards he gavee me , I threw out all the gifts he bought me , and I deleted all the pictures of us out of my phone . I hated him for what he did to mee . The next day at school , I was so devastated . All I did was cry :/ Then I decide to ask God for strength . I just said “God givee me the strength to makee it through this day because I can’t go through the wholee day like this .” And like that *snaps fingers* :) , the tears stopped and never camee back . The rest of thee week was a lot easier for me to survive . Wednesday I went with the church to a Tye Tribbett concert at the Faith Center and of coursee he was there -____- Anyway I had a great timee . I felt soo free and refreshed afterwards . Then on my way home I received a text message from someonee . The number wasn’t saved in my phone so I likee “Who df is this ??” It said “Goodnight Ronique ,” and the signature was somee Flash crap , of coursee -,- So I text back and said “Good night Mauricee .” Then he replied saying something like “I know you probably hatee me right now but when you’re ready to talk I’m here .” So likee an hour later I called him . Basically he called to sayy that everything is a liee . I still don’t know what to believe because the person that told mee wouldn’t liee to me because thy’re family , but then again he wouldn’t go out of his way to contact mee if he wasn’t telling the truth . He could havee just left it/mee alonee , but he didn’t . And if his relationship with that girl was that serious , there would bee no secret and no reason to hide it . Anyway that was that . Then he text mee just to sayy what’s up that Saturday night and I told him I was getting ready for my cousin’s Sweet 16 that i had previously invited him to . He said if he was still invited and I said suree . So I’m sitting at the party waiting for him to comee . Henever showed up , bitch ass -_________- Later that night I text him saying Ima slit his throat . He called mee and we talked , but the convo was very distant . Apparently hee was high -__- Then he got off the phonee to talk to someeone . He called mee back super sarcastic saying he needa get on Tumblr all this bullshit . Apparently someonee told him something they weren’t supposed to because it’s not their business to tell and they don’t even know the legitimacy of the statement (becausee its false) . So hee was talking about how he was gonna roll hima fat blunt and go fxck somee bxtch that’s been bothering him all night :P Whatever . I told him it was the wrong answer and he was turning to the wrong things . I told him needs to prayy . He said smoking works better and praying didn’t savee us . So I had to explain to him that it did or else we deff wouldn’t havee been on the phonee . At church the next dayy I got a great hugg from him . One that I haven’t recieved in probably likee 2 months ^-^ ^^) <3 I also go him to pinky promisee me that he would cut his hairr (cuz he look a hott fxcking mess) and he would stopp smokingg :) Let’s see how that goess . Hmph :/
ON A LIGHTER NOTEE…that bxtch Kandice is telling EVERYBODY and they mama about Ronique ! Hah ! She’s even madee it a point to talk to this kidd I used to talk to my freshman year about me . Really ?? I feel so important that what I did is on her mind so much . All these people comee to mee saying how much she talks about mee , yet she says that everything she’s ever said about me , she’s said to my face . Okayy -___-
Enough about that bitch . Then there’s this nigga at school . Your typical jock . Quarterback of the football team . Got girls all over him . All of these females flocking him . All on his dick . And for somee reason all of them choose to talk to mee about him . And all of them think the same thing : they’re #1 and all the other girls are just chickenheads -____- Dumbasses . The worst part is that every night , whose’s phone does he end up texting ?? Minee . Where does he end up half the timee ?? My housee . They don’t know this >:D But the bright sidee is I don’t want him , so they can fight over him all they want . He’s a slimee dog ^-^
Mmmm…this was probably onee of the longest post I’ve donee but it was a long time coming so I had to do it . But i’m donee now . I won’t bee doing a post likee this for another 6 months -__- Lmaoo .
This is mainly for myy bestiee Juju because I never did get to tell her the wholee story about the wholee Eciruam thing :)
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightlymean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.
Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?
Mmm…can I say this is my lifee right now , pretty much -______-